And when the God’s decision of raising my status reached my ears, I broke into tears of happiness. I couldn’t believe just a sujood could elevate me in the sight of my Beloved Rabb. All it took to raise my status from a wife to a mother was this sincere sujood (in which I asked for a blessed baby – a chosen soul by Allah) that transformed the entire world of mine. The mere thought that juggled through my mind was that Jannah lies in my feet, SubhanAllah, can I even ask for any further empowerment?!
I don’t need any empowerment through this society. I’m empowered by God already – the highest of all authorities.
Now lets iterate towards the phase of gestation, the big deal you just signed up for! 🙂
Pregnancy brings in joy, happiness, anxiety, fluctuating mood swings to name a few. It’s a process of growth not just for the baby but also for the expectant mother. Transformation never comes easy. It takes away a great deal of you to reward you with much greater good. But sometimes the sight of the reward blurs out while you’re experiencing so many changes within. It’s not just a physical wear and tear alone that you experience. Physical coupled with emotional and spiritual drill, sometimes really compels you to lose your sanity in its entirety. The imbalanced hormones, the bodily changes, nausea, vomiting, indigestion, backache, internal weaknesses, cramps, stress of labor and pains that follow, new set of responsibilities, keeping up with your household chores, work, deadlines, maintaining yourself, societal pressures, all contribute in placing a woman in a position where she begins to end up in a burn-out state. She ends up snapping out, believing this is the end.
But just hold back those deteriorating thoughts, and reflect on the positive aspects of it. I’m going through similar phases like many of you reading this, and I can so relate to what you’re experiencing at this moment. But trust me, dearest sisters, this, too shall pass! God never places burden on a soul beyond what its capacity to bear, and you think that noone understands the position you’re in, trust me God does. He knows your pain, He has seen your struggle through this phase. Not a moment goes by that He has become oblivioun towards you. Not a single moment. And nothing great, comes easy. Nothing. You have to experience the worst to yield the best. And that’s what makes us stronger. That’s what makes our love much more precious than the rest. Trust His plan. Have faith. No state is forever. I know this storm is tough. But trust me, there’s light at the end of the tunnel.
And once the storm is over you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won’t be the same person who walked in.
You’ll be stronger than ever. Yes. You.
There’s always something to be grateful for. So don’t miss out the beauty of this gestation phase. I’ve been through this all, and still struggling through this, but patience and prayer is the strongest asset I’m trying to hold onto.
Allah says He’s the best of all listeners – As-Sami’ – All-Hearing, Al-Khabeer – the All-Knowing, so do you still think any of your prayer can ever go unheard, or your struggle goes unseen. Never. Never underestimate the power of your sujood, du’a or salah. Hold onto these weapons. Hold onto Qur’an. Allah Azzawajal says in the Qur’an;
Verily, in the remembrance of Allah, do hearts find rest. (13:28)
And have faith that only Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta’ala can uplift your worries. So turn to Him in sujood, repentance.
Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta’ala says in the Glorious Qur’an;
So verily, with the hardship, there’s relief. (94:5)
So look out for the silver lining in the cloud. Relief never comes after hardship. It’s there within a hardship. And only your optimism will let you see the relief that resides in there. SubhanAllah.
So hold onto the rope of Allah. His mercy always prevails. And remember, this too shall pass. 🙂